I don’t have a very close relationship with my
Mother. I mean I do have a connection with her. We talk and laugh; I am concern for her health and her peace of mind. Did I tell you we laugh? I can make her laugh in a heartbeat. All I need to do is remind her of my childhood escapades and the tears of joy and embarrassment will fall. She loves those moments. My mother loves our conversations
about politics. You don’t want to get into a debate on Politics with her. At times I am held at bay and I have made
Politics and
Community part of my life. My mother’s history and experiences in the
1960’s makes her a wealth of knowledge and I think because of that, we connect on a cerebral level and yet I feel that my Mother is more of a friend than anything else. If I had to analyze the reasons, it would most likely be due to my independent spirit. Compared to my younger siblings (
me being the oldest), I never was a needy person, even for parents. Since
13 years old, I have worked, traveled, explored the World around me and when I would return home, it was understood that I was just being me having my space and privacy. My siblings seemed to need more of my parent’s attention and for me; I never wanted that type of attention.
Recently I spent some quality time with my Mother. I have noticed that there is a significant change in our relationship. It’s more “
personal”. From what I am sensing, it’s more
of an acceptance of getting old, the journey into the ending of one’s life and making the proper spiritual acknowledgment of it. Then there is me, the oldest, the one child that was there first, born and independent enough to be Son, Friend and Private.
Recently we walked and talked while doing our traditional exchanging of life stories when my Mother decided to tell me something very private. A family secret that she felt I was old enough to handle and accept. The news was unsettling and yet I wished that I was told the story years earlier but in my Mother’s collective wisdom, she may have been correct. Only
GOD knows if she was right but in the event of that moment, my Mother asked, “
Do you now understand?” I did and I assured her that I did but only on the surface. Deep down I struggled with this newfound information about my family and then I thought about how it wasn’t so much the information but the denial of that information for so long.
Several days later I
see
New York Gov. Eliot Spitzer standing before the press apologizing for his indiscretions with a prostitute. Now it wasn’t that he was standing before me looking
POLITICALLY DUMB nor was it major news since in the past 2 years
SEX SCANDALS were common place so one more politician getting his
SEX on was old News. Also, when the breaking News prior was how the American Water system is contaminated with pharmaceutical drugs and hours later we are talking about
BLOW JOBS, I am initially suspect about the timing, especially since
WATER is Humanity's Lifeline. Then I heard asked from a woman Reporter that dreded question, “
Why would Eliot Spitzer’s wife stay with him after what he’s done to her?”
I then gave long pause to her question of
Mrs. Spitzer’s commitment to her husband and vows. I also recall that very same question asked of
NJ’s Gov. McGreevey, N
BA Player Kobe Bryant, President Bill Clinton, Comedian and Educator Bill Cosby and Sen. Larry “Wide Stance” Craig wives. I look back at all the comments and conversations surrounding the women of these men and what stood out the most were the comments from other Women. I found that Women are harder on other Women than Men and overall the uber ruthlessness sex of a society to condemn a relationship of sexual impropriety, a force often moved by the Women of society; especial if that relationship is tied to
Money,
Power and
Influence.
As I flip the channel looking for follow up stories on the chemical poisoning of America’s drinking water, I get stories of how sad it is for the wife and children to go through
THIS. The “
THIS”, meaning a husband that is having
SEX outside of the marriage. A common refrain,
CHEATING, within relationships, is an act documented around the World and throughout History. The
AFFAIR, just in American society alone, is a multi-billion dollar industry for entertainment's movie, television, talk shows, print media and song. It is the type of drama that jump starts our passions and pulsates the blood into overdrive. I am counting the days before I see advertised on a "
girlfriend" couch session with
Oprah Winfrey or a
Barbra Walters special, both women jockeying on who can pull down the most tears for that exclusive with Silder Spitzer as she pushes her book on how her marriage was a
LIE (
because America really wants to know how another Woman was victimized by a Man of Power).
The media’s push to get an explosive reaction out of
WOMEN, the on record voices of "The Sisterhood of Scorned Womens Club" gathering in Space and Cyber-space, the mounting of the
Feminist Movement gathering their forces to trumpet their Independence and Free Will from Men and in my Man's Chair (the beat up old reclining chair) and you have me sitting quietly asking one question, “
Isn’t this all a private moment between the Spitzer’s?”
I can speak personally on the subject of a family scorned. I am a survivor of divorce. As much as I hate saying that, it’s the best and only way to state that as a child, my parents separated and went their separate ways, me going with my Mother. Why I dislike saying that I am a survivor is that I never saw myself as a
VICTIM. To say that would mean I was in a state of mind of being helpless; which I wasn’t. I knew then as I know now, I had nothing to do with my parents separation. Sometimes a split can be a good thing, based upon circumstances and yet the seed left in my mind to contemplate is
WHAT IF? What if things were different and my parents had stayed together? Would I have been the same person or different? Would my current relations or past relations had been different? As personalities are defined, we are a totality of our pa
st experiences and physical makeup. We can never say we have no
Past Experiences; it’s the unhealthy tweaking of those experiences that soft minds, not mature enough to handle those real events of their past, that can play havoc on people unless there is a structured lifestyle to balance it out. Since I had balance, I never felt held back from becoming a "normal", sane and productive individual.
I look at
Silder Spitzer and I don’t even care how the media portrayed her as the wounded victim, how “drained” of life and how she looked (
which I think is a shallow and weak politically correct way of stating that she is old and beat down looking), shocked and weak or how mentally she has live an illusion of self-determination, how fate has put her in this position, the sadness of being part of the
Political Cheaters Club. No, I look at her and say to myself, "How do you address the breakdown in your family?"
It's obvious that the real
PROBLEM in Silder Spitzer’s family isn’t the cheating or the prostitutes, but the nature of the
MAN, her husband,
Eliot Spitzer. It is apparent that his come uppings in Political Power is a
HIGH for him, which required a prize for
Conquest. The conquest or the quenching of that subjuga
tion of his
Power High which for Men is
SEX. Call it an "
addiction", call it a "
warrior's" ideology, call it just being a
MAN, society has shown throughout history, religion, psychology, a ring full of gladiators or the innate nature of mankind, that this is how
FIGHTERS are hardwired. Anyone knowing Eliot Spitzer, his background, his many conquests and accomplishments, a man who was on a
FAST TRACK to the United States Presidency (
with credentials far better than both Hillary Clinton and Barak Obama) is/was a
Man of Power. Being the wife of a Man of Power, any woman should know that with
Great Power, come
Great Ambition and Great Ambition comes
Greater Conquests … this including Women (
or Boys for those that swing that way). It is no strange term to hear that someone was "
Drunk with Power", will rise up too quickly, stubble and fall to soon have their significant other come with aid as the designated drive to bring them home. As the wife, it is her duty to be an enabler of that intoxicated behavior or risk loosing the benefits that come with Power. This is what the average Woman fail to understand and also is equally as hard for them to understand
WHY THEY STAY.
My conversation with my Mother that day of sharing family secrets made this point
REAL for me. Some people cannot sell their
Soul for that type of
POWER, to excuse
Personal Responsibility and looking forward to teaching lessons of
Accountability to her children. Some women can. Silder Spitzer in hindsight knew this although she was always uncomfortable with it.
SHE KNEW this could happen. The question is what did she do to
PREPARE and what will they do
NOW?
It is often known that in matters of infidelity; Women are more forgiving than Men. This i
s due to how each view
SEX in relation to the infidelity and the historical role of the woman in society. Women attach more ownership to emotion and Sex than Men so when an issue of cheating occurs, the most frequent question asked from a woman is, “
Did you love her?” It is within the answer that a Women will build the determining “
IF” the relationship can be salvaged. This is the real News and the area where most Women are interested in. Those
MILIONS of women whom have been scorned by
CHEATING Men have their scorecards ready. Some are hoping Silder can get through this affair for the family; others want her to get half. No matter how the Spitzer family resolves this highly publicized issue, the person who will get the most criticism will be the
WIFE. Society will split their viewpoint of her being straight down the middle. She will forever be a
DUMB VICTIM for staying and honoring her marriage vows by doing the following:
1.
Accessing the Damage
2.
Communicate (deviling deeper into what was said and not said)
3.
Determine what’s missing in the Marriage and making changes (therapy)
4.
The Children and what is best for them using the first three steps
4.
Forgiveness (in order to move forward)
5.
Trust
If Silder decides to Leave then she will be
CHAMPIONED into the
SHE WOMAN’S HATE MENS CLUB and go on to sell books, do lectures, talk shows, commentary for the next Politician’s Wife who is cheated on, a Victims Tour and just maybe she will
RE-INVENT herself and become an individual separate from the embarrassment of Politics and yet she will still maintain the stigmata of a Woman who married for Power and lost it.
Damned if you do Damned if you don’t. And to think that this is all about
SEX. I know others will argue it’s about integrity, political harmony, the
IRS, hypocrisy or maybe a little revenge but take away all the frosting on the issue and it is still about
SEX. Politicians aren’t supposed to have
SEX … not even with their
WIVES. If this is the case Silder Spitzer’s reputation was doomed from the moment she married. Some families can handle this in private, as part of a family secret, some are cursed to live it in the public eye, I can honestly say for me, some family secrets, in a perfect World, can wait until you are ready.
By the way, I am still looking for the
NEWS on the contamination of
AMERICA’S DRINKING WATER. I haven’t forgotten.
I am watching my evening News shows before I either hit the bed or pull another one of my traditional all night writing rampages when I flip the channel to PBS to check out Tavis Smiley and Charlie Rose. I check the schedule and see that Charlie Rose will be talking about the Barak Obama speech giver earlier today. I decide to stay up a little longer. I figure I haven't gotten enough over saturation of the media attention and over abundance of opinions for my blog, Charlie’s opinion would have been the punctuation I needed to complete my view point when, “DAYUM!!!, what the FUQ happen to you!?!?” My boy Charlie Rose got a BEAT DOWN.
He was sitting there talking to Jon Meacham, Editor of Newsweek and Author and Reverend Floyd Flake, Pastor and Former US Congressman on the importance of Barak Obama and how his position in American history plays well on the psyche of voters, Black and White, and all the while the the only thing I kept seeing was how Charlie Boy got YOKED.
to find out, Charlie Boy got busted up trying to save his MacBook Air. Charlie Boy was about to drop his Mac Computer? DAYUM, I can’t believe Charlie Boy went out like that.
